So I have started the job search.  Its not fun. I have come to realize that I seek people's approval way too much.  I have only been rejected (or not offered a job) from two employers so far, but both times I feel like its a slap in the face.  I interpret not getting a job (even though I know neither of those jobs were the ones for me! that's beside the point) as someone saying that I am not good enough.

The flip side of that is that a wonderful mom from my church asked me if I'd be interested in taking care of her kids as a job after I graduate. I told her I would think about it.  The truth is that I would absolutely positively love, love, love taking care of these kids.  They are just adorable.  The thing that is holding me back is the fact that I was so obsessed with getting a college degree, and thought it was so important, and spent so much money, and lived with my parents for so long, and now I would be taking a job that a fourteen year old girl could do.  (no offense to fourteen year old baby-sitters)

I am stuck on the social status of the job, and forgetting completely about how much I would enjoy working for this family.  But I am still torn.  I frustrate myself.  Der.

i have been thinking about coloring my hair...

like a lighter brown/blonde color.  any opinions on this?

so now I have time again to spend time with friends, and relax, and oh yeah, read my Bible. seriously I cannot believe how little I read my Bible.

My entire family is in Glenwood Springs.  I am in Edmond.  BOOO!! My summer school class ended Monday, and my family left for colorado the Friday before.  Oh well. I got 10 credit hours out of the way, and hopefully will get to spend more time with the fam after this summer. 

I have been dog sitting for my aunt and uncle, and I just love it.  Having a dog is amazing.  I walk her, play catch with her, brush her.  And, the best part isn't even really the dog.  Its the pool at my aunt and uncle's house.  Ahh. it is so relaxing to swim somewhere where no one can see you.  The main thing I hate about swimming is the swim suit.  Even at my absolute thinnest, I didn't feel comfortable in a swim suit. So its much better in my opinion to swim in a back yard surrounded by a fence. 

I feel like this entire thing was completely random.  Oh well.